The Errors that Led to Tom the Agnostic/Atheist

All my life, from a young child onward, I had a curiosity about everything, but especially spiritual things. I always had a sense that there was more to know – that there was more to life and that if I could find it, would lead to a better life. Consequently, I asked many questions of the nuns and priests at my parochial grade school. But the answer to my questions, only led to other questions and I never felt satisfied. And of course, more than once the final answer in the series of questions and answers, was, “My child it is all a matter of faith.” Later I found what I believe are the answers I was seeking. However, there were significant delays due to errors in my thinking.

Who Do You Say You Are? The Most Important Question You Could Ever Ask Yourself

I remember myself, a young boy in a Catholic church at Mass reading the scriptures as I followed along with the priest. I remember reading the parables and and teachings of Jesus, like, “..first remove the beam from your own eye”, thinking this doesn’t apply to me – it must be for non-Catholics.  So there was nothing for me to consider in my own life, nothing for me to change, nothing for me to do. To me in that mindset, the teachings of Christ had no meaning and no value. In my mind, Jesus’ teachings just did not apply to me. 

Letter to my (ex) Methodist Pastor, "What is My Idea of the Perfect Church"

The new pastor in one of his first services stated that he would soon request all members to provide their comments to the question, what is your idea of the perfect church. About a year went by and he never followed through, so I sent him the following unsolicited letter. And then following the letter you might want to read about a little meeting he had with me shortly after.

My Experiences With Kinesiology Early on My Path

I heard about a spiritual teacher his name was Dr. David R. Hawkins. Dr Hawkins is a renowned psychiatrist, and author as well as spiritual teacher. Dr. Hawkins teaches that you can determine the answer to any question in the universe through kinesiology, (muscle testing). The theory that muscles are stronger in a person in a neutral state of mind in the presence of truth than in the presence of falsehood. If not familiar with kinesiology, you might want to Google it where you can actually see demonstrations performed at Dr Hawkins direction.

What Has the Path Done for Me?

It is June, 2018 and I am approaching 12 years of serious study and application of the spiritual tools given by the ascended masters? On a daily basis, I have read or listened to teachings and on a daily basis I have given 30-90 minutes of decrees and invocations. The reading and listening was easy even from the start because I have always sought out and read self-improvement or spiritual books. Giving the invocations and decrees out loud was difficult at first. Even though they were very strongly prescribed as an absolutely essential element of the path, a part of me just didn’t want to do it. I felt a little awkward and embarrassed and wondered what my wife would think, etc, etc.  But soon, I realized that the part of me that didn’t want to do this was the ego, because the ego didn’t want to lose control over the real me, the conscious-self.  So, in the early days I had to constantly remind myself of the source of this resistance and push ahead. Then after many months of doing this, I took a break and found that I missed it, that I actually felt better, lighter, clearer when I did do them and so I continued the practice.

A Lesson at age 12: "You are better than that"

I played football on my grade school football team. I really wasn't very good. I didn't understand the game except for the most basic aspects of it. I did apply myself and I did try to put forth an honest effort... most of the time. One day, I did something or failed to do something that I should have done..I really don't remember, but the coach said something to me that I have remembered now for fifty-five years. I believe what he said was the ultimate discipline/wake-up call that can be put into words. I also believe it is what the Ascended Masters have been trying to get through my outer mind over all these years as well. What did he say?  It was just the simple truth, "Son, you are better than that!"...The Masters might say, "Son, you are more than this.".

Early Religion

I was raised as a Roman Catholic. I attended a parochial grade school on the South side of Chicago in a blue collar, steel worker neighborhood. I owe a great debt to those Dominican Sisters who taught me. I was lazy, always looking for an easy way out. I soon learned that with the nuns, the easiest way was their way. Their authority was unquestionable and consistently enforced. I owe them a debt, because that was what I needed at the time to overcome my lazy ways.